Take me as I am

I will be the first one to admit I am far from perfect-I make dozens of mistakes every day. Some I learn from, some I forget and do again but I'm not perfect and I never will be.

I'm the youngest child of two youngest kids and I was an opps baby, but that's okay-I'm here! I'm the youngest and I was spoiled in someways but I also grew up overnight and was doing adult work and responsibilities as a teenager not by choice but by circumstance. It helped shape me into who I am today, good, bad or otherwise.

I've been a redhead all my life, born this way-strawberry blonde! I disliked the red hair as a kid and young adult. It always brought me attention that I did not want. I'd rather slip into a room full of people unnoticed rather than draw attention to myself. But that does not happen very often when you have red hair. People notice...unfortunately. I've come to accept the hair color and it is who I am.

I am fiercely proud of my kids but I will not brag. We already have too many people in this world who want it to be all about them.  But in my own heart I am proud and will love them always.

I need to be creative. This can range in a variety of ways...from organizing things-it gives me a new, fresh outlook on life, to painting (or my attempts at painting!) or rearranging a room. It helps me release stress and fill my creative need. I have a love hate relationship with change. Something new as in as simple as a pair of earrings can make my day. But new ways often cause me stress-but I won't tell anyone that. Its my problem, I deal with it on my own.

I will stand up for someone or something that I believe in. I am fiercely loyal until a person makes me an option or a second choice then my loyalties will falter, big time. I can never learn the lesson of NOT expecting something of someone...I always expect what I would do someone else they will do for me and it bites me in the butt every time. Over and over again I'm hurt or disappointed. I'm trying really, really hard to learn this lesson. To walk away, to no longer care and let go. If you expect nothing and get nothing then life is less of a disappointment. And once I've given up on a person, and there are few in this world I have given up on, I don't look back and a second chance is not an option. I'm done.

I am used to being alone. As the youngest I grew up alone for the most part. I learned to entertain myself and use my imagination. I'm fine with being on my own.

I struggle with hair-ask my daughter! I could never do her hair for dance recital and such. I'm hair challenged with my own and with other people's hair-all thumbs and left handed! Don't ask me-your hair will look better getting out of bed in the a.m. than having me "attempt" to style it!!

I've figured out that there are a lot of foods that don't like me or I don't like them!! They will bother me after eating and that is worse than being hungry. I've had a sensitive stomach my whole life....and I don't know why. It is who I am!

I hate girl drama...and some girls create drama just because they are girls. MYOB (mind your own business) and stop being a pain in the butt! Do something more positive and productive with your time and life. Jeez!

Positive thought of the day: Expect nothing and life is a lot happier! TGIF!