Today is the day, or at least I think it will be. My daughter, my only daughter, will decide on her wedding dress! Things can change, it won't be the first time and it won't be the last time and if they do it won't be the end of the world!
This has been an exciting, fun, frustrating process. Having a low maintenance daughter has made dress shopping not a high priority. I know of one engage girl who had her church, reception site and wedding dress the Monday after getting engage on Saturday and this was a few days before Christmas! Really? This is not the case with my bride-to-be. It's not that she does not care, but she has the perspective of it's not about the dress or the wedding but about the marriage.
Our shopping has been hit or miss and going on 3 months and visits to four different bridal stores. She has went from plain and simple to lace and embellishments and has landed some where inbetween. The styles have changed along with way too. We've found out what does not look good on her small frame and what makes her look fabulous! And we've learned what bridal stores we won't go back to (if all your floor models of dresses are in size 10 and you don't allow photos to be taken don't expect us to be back with our size 0 bride). There is no way you can envision how a dress will look when it is 10 sizes too big and clipped down the back to keep it on the bride.
Our fall has been crazy busy and my daughter pretty much has decided on the dress she tried on back in August at different store, but we've had no time to go have her try on, get measured and order her dress. Except....there is one problem. Regardless of measuring and ordering her dress will still need alterations. This can get pricey. And the store where we found the perfect dress does not have anyone on staff to do alterations. So that would be another thing we'd have to run for. So we put our heads together, found out the bridal store nearby does have someone who can do alterations and has and can order "the dress"! Yes!! So we will go and try the dress on once more and see if she says "yes to the dress"! I'm excited and happy for this but a tad sad as this is my only daughter and this is the first and last for me. But that's okay. It does just seem like yesterday we were prom dress shopping!
So after today we will hopefully have a dress ordered and on to the next thing on our list! And then, if my son's want me to help, I can go with each of them to help pick out their tuxedo for their wedding!!! LOL! After all isn't that the equivalent of wedding dress shopping?! : )
Positive thought of the day: Enjoy all that is happening around you. It is all memories that will be go and past way too quickly.
Thursday, October 22, 2015
Tuesday, October 20, 2015
A bitter sweet day
October 20....this day holds a lot of memories for me. It is the birthday of my kids great grandma. Grandma V was one of the sweetest, kindest ladies I've known. She raised six kids, buried one and was a farmers wife so she knew how to work. Her kids were ornery, and still are. She loved her kids, grandkids and great grandkids-she was my first and only experience with a grandparent which I inherited when I got married-she became my grandma too! She was a sweet, sweet lady. They played the song Edelweiss at her funeral-I think of her every time I hear that song and it could not have been a more fitting song for her.
This day is also filled with sadness-29 years ago today I miscarried my first baby. This is a heartache you never forget. I got to see that baby, tiny and small. I wonder and think about that little person, who never had a chance to live. I wonder what he or she would have grown up to be like? Would they have had red hair? But on this exact same day, a year after loosing that baby, I found out I was pregnant again and this time things went as planned. That baby was born, grew up and is my oldest son! There is nothing like the thrill of finding out you are pregnant but one of the worse feelings in this world is coming home from the hospital without that baby.
This day holds sadness for the community I live in as two young men were tragically killed in auto accidents on this day two years apart. Families are still healing and dealing with these losses.
I've sat with a friend and listened and shed a few tears today as she is having her dog put to sleep because of health reasons.
It amazes me how a day or date can generate so many feelings. So here is today. A day filled with sad and sweet memories. It's all part of living and life.
This day is also filled with sadness-29 years ago today I miscarried my first baby. This is a heartache you never forget. I got to see that baby, tiny and small. I wonder and think about that little person, who never had a chance to live. I wonder what he or she would have grown up to be like? Would they have had red hair? But on this exact same day, a year after loosing that baby, I found out I was pregnant again and this time things went as planned. That baby was born, grew up and is my oldest son! There is nothing like the thrill of finding out you are pregnant but one of the worse feelings in this world is coming home from the hospital without that baby.
This day holds sadness for the community I live in as two young men were tragically killed in auto accidents on this day two years apart. Families are still healing and dealing with these losses.
I've sat with a friend and listened and shed a few tears today as she is having her dog put to sleep because of health reasons.
It amazes me how a day or date can generate so many feelings. So here is today. A day filled with sad and sweet memories. It's all part of living and life.
Wednesday, October 14, 2015
There is one in every crowd! (Or put your hand down!!)
We've all been in that class where the teacher asks if there is anyone with a question 20 minutes or 10 minutes before the end of class...everyone is thinking the same thing...free time to work if you are in high school or junior high or getting out of class early if you are in college! Yes! Even 10 minutes is priceless if you can get out of class early and have extra free time!! BUT!!!!!! Then someone raises there hand and you go from feeling elation to ticked off! Really?????? Are you serious?
Now, I'm gonna apologize right now if you are or ever have been one of those people who have done this (more than once)....STOP READING RIGHT NOW and go about your day, doing whatever! For the rest of us, keep reading!
Well that happened to me today. I'm supposed to have a 4 p.m. meeting. Our check list of things to have done or get done is finished and taken care of. So a couple of committee members came and talked me and asked why are we meeting? No idea since our list was done. I volunteered to send the group the to-do list and ask if we really need to meet and what else needs to be done? Tell me!
And I hear nothing EXCEPT for THAT ONE person...."let's meet" she replies two hours later via email. Really? So we're gonna have a meeting to plan our next meeting? Or we are meeting because we have everything done that we are suppose to be meeting about DONE? The individual that had that email reply I'm 99.9% sure is one of "those" people who raised their hands in class when you were on the verge of getting done early and probably did so often. Oblivious to her classmates-no doubt. Grrrr! And so we will meet, for little or nothing at 4 p.m.today. And to be honest I have a theory and opinion on why this person did this. 1. They have been one of those kinds of people their whole life, the ones that love to be involved, so they ask to join or volunteer for this kind of stuff. And usually they need to put their time, energy and efforts into their own business and work, not be on another committee. They think they are being a leader. 2. They have nothing else to do after school. The other two people who talked to me have busy families and lives, most of us have things we need to do or get done but apparently not everyone.
So we will meet and I'm not sure for what, but we will meet and waste at least a half hour. I'll show up for this lovely meeting and see what great things we accomplish-yes that is sarcasm. I hope I'm wrong and we move mountains but if I'm not wrong and this is an utter waste then I have a solution. That is "these kinds of people" all need to be on the same committee or in the same class so they can meet for nothing or ask questions and keep everybody longer on their own time!
Positive though of the day: May all your meetings or classes be meaningful and have a purpose! Keep smiling!
Now, I'm gonna apologize right now if you are or ever have been one of those people who have done this (more than once)....STOP READING RIGHT NOW and go about your day, doing whatever! For the rest of us, keep reading!
Well that happened to me today. I'm supposed to have a 4 p.m. meeting. Our check list of things to have done or get done is finished and taken care of. So a couple of committee members came and talked me and asked why are we meeting? No idea since our list was done. I volunteered to send the group the to-do list and ask if we really need to meet and what else needs to be done? Tell me!
And I hear nothing EXCEPT for THAT ONE person...."let's meet" she replies two hours later via email. Really? So we're gonna have a meeting to plan our next meeting? Or we are meeting because we have everything done that we are suppose to be meeting about DONE? The individual that had that email reply I'm 99.9% sure is one of "those" people who raised their hands in class when you were on the verge of getting done early and probably did so often. Oblivious to her classmates-no doubt. Grrrr! And so we will meet, for little or nothing at 4 p.m.today. And to be honest I have a theory and opinion on why this person did this. 1. They have been one of those kinds of people their whole life, the ones that love to be involved, so they ask to join or volunteer for this kind of stuff. And usually they need to put their time, energy and efforts into their own business and work, not be on another committee. They think they are being a leader. 2. They have nothing else to do after school. The other two people who talked to me have busy families and lives, most of us have things we need to do or get done but apparently not everyone.
So we will meet and I'm not sure for what, but we will meet and waste at least a half hour. I'll show up for this lovely meeting and see what great things we accomplish-yes that is sarcasm. I hope I'm wrong and we move mountains but if I'm not wrong and this is an utter waste then I have a solution. That is "these kinds of people" all need to be on the same committee or in the same class so they can meet for nothing or ask questions and keep everybody longer on their own time!
Positive though of the day: May all your meetings or classes be meaningful and have a purpose! Keep smiling!
Sunday, October 11, 2015
Not a gold star...when you really look
I grew up in the era where different colored stars were put on your papers and worksheets in early elementary school. I'm not sure if this method is still used today. I know hand drawn stars and smiley faces were also used. This was a way of grading the homework...blue, red, silver and gold stars. Usually a gold star meant you were golden! I don't remember if I got many gold stars as a kid. And it does not matter.
I recently read a blog by a woman who was looking at her life from the outside in. Someone had told her that her life was golden. But she felt far from golden and she went on to write about how she see's herself. She feels far from golden and feels that if people really knew her they would not see her life as golden either. What she was sharing was a lot of self doubt and fears about her self and her life. Life long fears such as a fear of thunder storms-I fear high winds with bad thunderstorms but I love a good thunderstorm! And I don't know why. I used to have a fear of the basement drain in the house I grew up in. That was because when any appliance that used water would empty the drain would gurgle. My lovely brothers told me it was some kind of monster. I would tear up those basement stairs faster than heck if that drain was making noise. I'm sure they got a great deal of enjoyment from the fear they planted in my mind! Damn brothers!!
But the woman shared a lot of personal things and it hit home with me. I share some of her same fears and thoughts:
-I was bullied as a kid (but I think everyone was at some time) and it was mostly because of my red hair and big blue eyes.
-I have a hard time letting go of people, even after they hurt me. I always expect from others what I would do for them....and you know the rest of this story.
-I try to avoid groups, big or small in order to not be the invisible one or the one ignored. It hurts and it's happened, a lot.
-I feel like I'm an easy person to walk away from in life.
- I almost always operate under the assumption that I care more about everyone else than they do about me. I'm trying to fix this and to care less.
-I struggle, every single day, with feeling like I’m enough. Skinny enough. Funny enough. Good enough. I think this is a female way of thinking in some form or another. And it depends on the day.
-I cry in the shower, usually. No one knows, can tell or can hear. It works best for me.
-I detest loud, self-centered people, of any gender-it's not all about you. Zip it, we all have our battles and success. Helping with the battles and celebrating the successes is great but it does not have to always be all about you.
-And I dislike men who are asses and treat women like they are second class humans-this includes my bosses who have done so and men in general who treat women poorly even in a small way. Respect is a valuable thing but gender has nothing to do with it. Honestly men with this kind of behavior really piss me off. Yep, I said that out loud. I'd like to fix them but you can't fix stupid and the best thing would be a dose of reality or a kick in the nuts-but doubt either would do any good.
And I highly doubt I would get a star for any of this. I've made my share of mistakes. I always doubt myself as a mother and parent. There are times I feel like I could have/should have done more or done something different as a mom but I did the best I could at the time and often times I did it alone. That's life. Not looking for a gold star here.
We all have scars real and invisible ones. It's the scars that tell the real, true story. Scars mean we showed up for the fight, we didn't run. We lived to tell.
Gold stars mean nothing it's the purple stars in life that matter. And everyone is fighting a battle of some kind. You can see what kind of battle some people are dealing with, while others cover what is going on so well you would guess their life is golden and nothing is wrong. You can't see the scars only the gold stars.
So having self doubt and thinking we are not deserving in life I know is normal. It is part of life. Waking up every morning and living each days the best we can do is a gift from God. Because life requires guts…it requires bravery…and it requires vulnerability. It's what it is all about.
The one thing I need to remember, we all need to remember, is that we are not in this fight alone. Everyone has a story. Everyone has scars. Everyone is fighting a fight and gold stars don't matter. Living each day and dealing with those fears do.
Positive thought of the day: Give yourself a gold star, just for living today!
I recently read a blog by a woman who was looking at her life from the outside in. Someone had told her that her life was golden. But she felt far from golden and she went on to write about how she see's herself. She feels far from golden and feels that if people really knew her they would not see her life as golden either. What she was sharing was a lot of self doubt and fears about her self and her life. Life long fears such as a fear of thunder storms-I fear high winds with bad thunderstorms but I love a good thunderstorm! And I don't know why. I used to have a fear of the basement drain in the house I grew up in. That was because when any appliance that used water would empty the drain would gurgle. My lovely brothers told me it was some kind of monster. I would tear up those basement stairs faster than heck if that drain was making noise. I'm sure they got a great deal of enjoyment from the fear they planted in my mind! Damn brothers!!
But the woman shared a lot of personal things and it hit home with me. I share some of her same fears and thoughts:
-I was bullied as a kid (but I think everyone was at some time) and it was mostly because of my red hair and big blue eyes.
-I have a hard time letting go of people, even after they hurt me. I always expect from others what I would do for them....and you know the rest of this story.
-I try to avoid groups, big or small in order to not be the invisible one or the one ignored. It hurts and it's happened, a lot.
-I feel like I'm an easy person to walk away from in life.
- I almost always operate under the assumption that I care more about everyone else than they do about me. I'm trying to fix this and to care less.
-I struggle, every single day, with feeling like I’m enough. Skinny enough. Funny enough. Good enough. I think this is a female way of thinking in some form or another. And it depends on the day.
-I cry in the shower, usually. No one knows, can tell or can hear. It works best for me.
-I detest loud, self-centered people, of any gender-it's not all about you. Zip it, we all have our battles and success. Helping with the battles and celebrating the successes is great but it does not have to always be all about you.
-And I dislike men who are asses and treat women like they are second class humans-this includes my bosses who have done so and men in general who treat women poorly even in a small way. Respect is a valuable thing but gender has nothing to do with it. Honestly men with this kind of behavior really piss me off. Yep, I said that out loud. I'd like to fix them but you can't fix stupid and the best thing would be a dose of reality or a kick in the nuts-but doubt either would do any good.
And I highly doubt I would get a star for any of this. I've made my share of mistakes. I always doubt myself as a mother and parent. There are times I feel like I could have/should have done more or done something different as a mom but I did the best I could at the time and often times I did it alone. That's life. Not looking for a gold star here.
We all have scars real and invisible ones. It's the scars that tell the real, true story. Scars mean we showed up for the fight, we didn't run. We lived to tell.
Gold stars mean nothing it's the purple stars in life that matter. And everyone is fighting a battle of some kind. You can see what kind of battle some people are dealing with, while others cover what is going on so well you would guess their life is golden and nothing is wrong. You can't see the scars only the gold stars.
So having self doubt and thinking we are not deserving in life I know is normal. It is part of life. Waking up every morning and living each days the best we can do is a gift from God. Because life requires guts…it requires bravery…and it requires vulnerability. It's what it is all about.
The one thing I need to remember, we all need to remember, is that we are not in this fight alone. Everyone has a story. Everyone has scars. Everyone is fighting a fight and gold stars don't matter. Living each day and dealing with those fears do.
Positive thought of the day: Give yourself a gold star, just for living today!
Friday, October 9, 2015
When you have the time
What do you do when you have some spare time? I know it is a rare thing, but what do you do when you are alone and have some time and space to yourself? When you don't have a schedule to follow, or you don't have to be some place by a certain time. No one is around to talk to or hang out with. What do you do?
I have what I call my spare or "free" time every so often after school and how long that is time is depends on when I leave school. It is MY time. And how do I spend it, well here's a list from this past week and what I did with my "free" time after getting home!
1. Did laundry-caught up/started, gather it and sort, wash, dry, hang up, fold, iron, put away.
2. Start dinner or at least figure out something to make.
3. Clean up the kitchen-dishes, garbage out, wipe down counters and put stuff away.
4. Take a short nap because I've been up since 3 or 4 a.m. and I've had a 3-day migraine.
5. Clean-vacuum, fold laundry, mop floors, dust, pick up, put away. You get the idea here.
6. Get ready for tomorrow....pack lunch, get what I need ready and lined up to go. Pick out clothes for the next day.
7. Exercise-usually a combo of things, a workout DVD, treadmill, go outside for a walk/run, do yard work.
8. Talk to my daughter-love this!
9. Sit for 5-10 minutes and pet and brush my cats-they love this and often get goofy and funny! It's relaxing and fun.
10. Sit and read or relax for 10-20 minutes to re-group from the day-too much time to think is not good but so is not having any free time.
11. Run errands.
Yes, this is pretty much the order of priority for my life with my "free" time after school. Don't get me wrong, I love "free" time. But I also know when I walk through the door at home I walk right into one of my "other" jobs. I live at one job and go to another job everyday. (And what drives me nuts more than anything is when people are at my house, the other people who live there and they act like a guest. They sit around and do nothing or even better stand around and WATCH me work. If you want to piss me off just do this.)
But going back to what I do with "free time" I guess I look at reading, talking with my daughter or exercising as fun and not work. I have figured out that if I workout each day my headaches are less likely to happen. But having free time on my hands is both a good thing and bad thing. Often times I have so much to do that I go into shut down mode when I get to my "free" time. It's too much and I'm overwhelmed. If I have a list and goals then things go a lot better. If I have help that is even better. I can only do so much alone, regardless of how hard I try.
But having free time is always nice. And if I get a lot accomplished or if I take a nap or watch a favorite show as long as it recharges my batteries and gets my mind on other things then it is a good thing.
As we head into the weekend I have a list of things I'd like to get done. And then there is the list of things I have to get done. Regardless the weekend is quiet and pretty stress free so I will take that!
Positive thought of the day: May your "free" time this weekend be fulfilling and relaxing. Enjoy it regardless if it is 5 minutes or 5 hours. Enjoy!
I have what I call my spare or "free" time every so often after school and how long that is time is depends on when I leave school. It is MY time. And how do I spend it, well here's a list from this past week and what I did with my "free" time after getting home!
1. Did laundry-caught up/started, gather it and sort, wash, dry, hang up, fold, iron, put away.
2. Start dinner or at least figure out something to make.
3. Clean up the kitchen-dishes, garbage out, wipe down counters and put stuff away.
4. Take a short nap because I've been up since 3 or 4 a.m. and I've had a 3-day migraine.
5. Clean-vacuum, fold laundry, mop floors, dust, pick up, put away. You get the idea here.
6. Get ready for tomorrow....pack lunch, get what I need ready and lined up to go. Pick out clothes for the next day.
7. Exercise-usually a combo of things, a workout DVD, treadmill, go outside for a walk/run, do yard work.
8. Talk to my daughter-love this!
9. Sit for 5-10 minutes and pet and brush my cats-they love this and often get goofy and funny! It's relaxing and fun.
10. Sit and read or relax for 10-20 minutes to re-group from the day-too much time to think is not good but so is not having any free time.
11. Run errands.
Yes, this is pretty much the order of priority for my life with my "free" time after school. Don't get me wrong, I love "free" time. But I also know when I walk through the door at home I walk right into one of my "other" jobs. I live at one job and go to another job everyday. (And what drives me nuts more than anything is when people are at my house, the other people who live there and they act like a guest. They sit around and do nothing or even better stand around and WATCH me work. If you want to piss me off just do this.)
But going back to what I do with "free time" I guess I look at reading, talking with my daughter or exercising as fun and not work. I have figured out that if I workout each day my headaches are less likely to happen. But having free time on my hands is both a good thing and bad thing. Often times I have so much to do that I go into shut down mode when I get to my "free" time. It's too much and I'm overwhelmed. If I have a list and goals then things go a lot better. If I have help that is even better. I can only do so much alone, regardless of how hard I try.
But having free time is always nice. And if I get a lot accomplished or if I take a nap or watch a favorite show as long as it recharges my batteries and gets my mind on other things then it is a good thing.
As we head into the weekend I have a list of things I'd like to get done. And then there is the list of things I have to get done. Regardless the weekend is quiet and pretty stress free so I will take that!
Positive thought of the day: May your "free" time this weekend be fulfilling and relaxing. Enjoy it regardless if it is 5 minutes or 5 hours. Enjoy!
Tuesday, October 6, 2015
The mighty migraine and my dumb stomach
I've written about the lovely migraine headaches I get before-they are no fun, unless you like pain. If you've never had one, count your blessings. If you have, I feel your pain-literally. I've been "blessed" with these things since the age of 13. I've learned to deal with them. And I've tried a ton of different things to prevent them. I've still not figured out my triggers other than STRESS is a big trigger for me. I would not wish these on my worse enemy (well maybe I would wish ONE migraine on a few people so they would understand the hell, light, sound and smells cause for me. Being woke up while trying to stop a migraine is pure hell, I've got no other way to put it other than HELL.) Being woke up while trying to get a migraine to slow down can cause it to instead get bad very, very fast. Some people just don't understand that. But I still would not wish them on people.
Add an extremely sensitive stomach to the migraine mix and it's a a barrel of monkeys for me at times. Not really but the stomach thing does not help. I was told I have always had a sensitive stomach. Eating is always an adventure. I've had eggs, lettuce, turkey, peanut butter, milk, seasonings, dressings, sauces, and a host of other delicious food bother me at any given time over the years, including water. As an adult I'm trying the process of elimination diet. So I never know if what I'm going to eat will come back to haunt me in a variety of ways. Not fun. I often opt not to eat when my stomach is on the rampage. Or I will get so hungry that I eat without thinking-duh Lynn. I need to remember to not order things like broasted chicken, that no matter how good it will taste or that it is cheaper than the steak, that was my latest culprit...broasted chicken, do NOT order it! It was so good, but so greasy! I should have just order the steak-I've never had a problem with steak-go figure! Even one of my favorites, ham, has given me problems-that makes me sad. I've never been tested for any kind of stomach sensitivity. My mom always told me how I would curl up into a ball whenever they fed me banana baby food when I was a baby....I still can't do banana anything. See I've been at this stomach thing all of my life.
So the nasty migraine that paid me an unwelcome visit at 3 a.m. this morning had been flirting with me since Sunday. I'd taken my prescription med yesterday in an attempt to stop things-which, silly me, thought it did. And then my stomach decided to wreak havoc on my life yesterday afternoon. So while I was dealing with that and attempting to sleep peacefully that migraine hit me while I was down and out. Thanks a lot.
The best thing I've learned to do when I have either of these physical situations is to give in and let them run their course. I'm not giving up or in, I'm just being wise and letting my body deal with the problems.
I've learned over the years my migraine triggers, they range from emotions, situations, food, lighting, weather and loud noise or people. Stress after a long time will take it's toll and sure as heck I'll get hit with a migraine often during the night-usually when I relax. A migraine during the day is something I can stop or at least deal with and slow down. I hate the night time migraines, as by the time I wake up with it I am too far into it to stop things. They are full blown-vomiting and a killer headache kind of things. I've been in the hospital twice with my migraines and the days that follow any migraine are still bad headaches but feel like a picnic compared to the real, full blown thing. I call them "headache hangovers" now-trying to find humor in not such fun situations. They can last for a day or several. I deal.
I'm not complaining about either of these physical things I've dealt with over the years. It is what it is. Would I like not to have to deal with them-you bet. But there are a lot worse things in life. It's no fun to have life interrupted by either of these, often times during big events, or take me out of things completely, but it could be a lot worse. I have learned to handle and manage, when I can, and keep moving forward. I wish there was a sure fire cure for the migraine, lots of tests and meds over the years but nothing to completely stop them.
Keeping a positive attitude, if there is such a thing with either of these two calamities that usually hit without much, if any warning is a challenge. But everyone has their thing and I'm used to it. It's not fun, but it's part of my life. And honestly things could be a lot worse.
Positive thought of the day: Sunshine is great but on days when I have a migraine a cloudy day is a blessing-so today I am blessed while coming out of a migraine! May you find a blessing in your day too!
Add an extremely sensitive stomach to the migraine mix and it's a a barrel of monkeys for me at times. Not really but the stomach thing does not help. I was told I have always had a sensitive stomach. Eating is always an adventure. I've had eggs, lettuce, turkey, peanut butter, milk, seasonings, dressings, sauces, and a host of other delicious food bother me at any given time over the years, including water. As an adult I'm trying the process of elimination diet. So I never know if what I'm going to eat will come back to haunt me in a variety of ways. Not fun. I often opt not to eat when my stomach is on the rampage. Or I will get so hungry that I eat without thinking-duh Lynn. I need to remember to not order things like broasted chicken, that no matter how good it will taste or that it is cheaper than the steak, that was my latest culprit...broasted chicken, do NOT order it! It was so good, but so greasy! I should have just order the steak-I've never had a problem with steak-go figure! Even one of my favorites, ham, has given me problems-that makes me sad. I've never been tested for any kind of stomach sensitivity. My mom always told me how I would curl up into a ball whenever they fed me banana baby food when I was a baby....I still can't do banana anything. See I've been at this stomach thing all of my life.
So the nasty migraine that paid me an unwelcome visit at 3 a.m. this morning had been flirting with me since Sunday. I'd taken my prescription med yesterday in an attempt to stop things-which, silly me, thought it did. And then my stomach decided to wreak havoc on my life yesterday afternoon. So while I was dealing with that and attempting to sleep peacefully that migraine hit me while I was down and out. Thanks a lot.
The best thing I've learned to do when I have either of these physical situations is to give in and let them run their course. I'm not giving up or in, I'm just being wise and letting my body deal with the problems.
I've learned over the years my migraine triggers, they range from emotions, situations, food, lighting, weather and loud noise or people. Stress after a long time will take it's toll and sure as heck I'll get hit with a migraine often during the night-usually when I relax. A migraine during the day is something I can stop or at least deal with and slow down. I hate the night time migraines, as by the time I wake up with it I am too far into it to stop things. They are full blown-vomiting and a killer headache kind of things. I've been in the hospital twice with my migraines and the days that follow any migraine are still bad headaches but feel like a picnic compared to the real, full blown thing. I call them "headache hangovers" now-trying to find humor in not such fun situations. They can last for a day or several. I deal.
I'm not complaining about either of these physical things I've dealt with over the years. It is what it is. Would I like not to have to deal with them-you bet. But there are a lot worse things in life. It's no fun to have life interrupted by either of these, often times during big events, or take me out of things completely, but it could be a lot worse. I have learned to handle and manage, when I can, and keep moving forward. I wish there was a sure fire cure for the migraine, lots of tests and meds over the years but nothing to completely stop them.
Keeping a positive attitude, if there is such a thing with either of these two calamities that usually hit without much, if any warning is a challenge. But everyone has their thing and I'm used to it. It's not fun, but it's part of my life. And honestly things could be a lot worse.
Positive thought of the day: Sunshine is great but on days when I have a migraine a cloudy day is a blessing-so today I am blessed while coming out of a migraine! May you find a blessing in your day too!
Friday, October 2, 2015
Take me as I am
I will be the first one to admit I am far from perfect-I make dozens of mistakes every day. Some I learn from, some I forget and do again but I'm not perfect and I never will be.
I'm the youngest child of two youngest kids and I was an opps baby, but that's okay-I'm here! I'm the youngest and I was spoiled in someways but I also grew up overnight and was doing adult work and responsibilities as a teenager not by choice but by circumstance. It helped shape me into who I am today, good, bad or otherwise.
I've been a redhead all my life, born this way-strawberry blonde! I disliked the red hair as a kid and young adult. It always brought me attention that I did not want. I'd rather slip into a room full of people unnoticed rather than draw attention to myself. But that does not happen very often when you have red hair. People notice...unfortunately. I've come to accept the hair color and it is who I am.
I am fiercely proud of my kids but I will not brag. We already have too many people in this world who want it to be all about them. But in my own heart I am proud and will love them always.
I need to be creative. This can range in a variety of ways...from organizing things-it gives me a new, fresh outlook on life, to painting (or my attempts at painting!) or rearranging a room. It helps me release stress and fill my creative need. I have a love hate relationship with change. Something new as in as simple as a pair of earrings can make my day. But new ways often cause me stress-but I won't tell anyone that. Its my problem, I deal with it on my own.
I will stand up for someone or something that I believe in. I am fiercely loyal until a person makes me an option or a second choice then my loyalties will falter, big time. I can never learn the lesson of NOT expecting something of someone...I always expect what I would do someone else they will do for me and it bites me in the butt every time. Over and over again I'm hurt or disappointed. I'm trying really, really hard to learn this lesson. To walk away, to no longer care and let go. If you expect nothing and get nothing then life is less of a disappointment. And once I've given up on a person, and there are few in this world I have given up on, I don't look back and a second chance is not an option. I'm done.
I am used to being alone. As the youngest I grew up alone for the most part. I learned to entertain myself and use my imagination. I'm fine with being on my own.
I struggle with hair-ask my daughter! I could never do her hair for dance recital and such. I'm hair challenged with my own and with other people's hair-all thumbs and left handed! Don't ask me-your hair will look better getting out of bed in the a.m. than having me "attempt" to style it!!
I've figured out that there are a lot of foods that don't like me or I don't like them!! They will bother me after eating and that is worse than being hungry. I've had a sensitive stomach my whole life....and I don't know why. It is who I am!
I hate girl drama...and some girls create drama just because they are girls. MYOB (mind your own business) and stop being a pain in the butt! Do something more positive and productive with your time and life. Jeez!
Positive thought of the day: Expect nothing and life is a lot happier! TGIF!
I'm the youngest child of two youngest kids and I was an opps baby, but that's okay-I'm here! I'm the youngest and I was spoiled in someways but I also grew up overnight and was doing adult work and responsibilities as a teenager not by choice but by circumstance. It helped shape me into who I am today, good, bad or otherwise.
I've been a redhead all my life, born this way-strawberry blonde! I disliked the red hair as a kid and young adult. It always brought me attention that I did not want. I'd rather slip into a room full of people unnoticed rather than draw attention to myself. But that does not happen very often when you have red hair. People notice...unfortunately. I've come to accept the hair color and it is who I am.
I am fiercely proud of my kids but I will not brag. We already have too many people in this world who want it to be all about them. But in my own heart I am proud and will love them always.
I need to be creative. This can range in a variety of ways...from organizing things-it gives me a new, fresh outlook on life, to painting (or my attempts at painting!) or rearranging a room. It helps me release stress and fill my creative need. I have a love hate relationship with change. Something new as in as simple as a pair of earrings can make my day. But new ways often cause me stress-but I won't tell anyone that. Its my problem, I deal with it on my own.
I will stand up for someone or something that I believe in. I am fiercely loyal until a person makes me an option or a second choice then my loyalties will falter, big time. I can never learn the lesson of NOT expecting something of someone...I always expect what I would do someone else they will do for me and it bites me in the butt every time. Over and over again I'm hurt or disappointed. I'm trying really, really hard to learn this lesson. To walk away, to no longer care and let go. If you expect nothing and get nothing then life is less of a disappointment. And once I've given up on a person, and there are few in this world I have given up on, I don't look back and a second chance is not an option. I'm done.
I am used to being alone. As the youngest I grew up alone for the most part. I learned to entertain myself and use my imagination. I'm fine with being on my own.
I struggle with hair-ask my daughter! I could never do her hair for dance recital and such. I'm hair challenged with my own and with other people's hair-all thumbs and left handed! Don't ask me-your hair will look better getting out of bed in the a.m. than having me "attempt" to style it!!
I've figured out that there are a lot of foods that don't like me or I don't like them!! They will bother me after eating and that is worse than being hungry. I've had a sensitive stomach my whole life....and I don't know why. It is who I am!
I hate girl drama...and some girls create drama just because they are girls. MYOB (mind your own business) and stop being a pain in the butt! Do something more positive and productive with your time and life. Jeez!
Positive thought of the day: Expect nothing and life is a lot happier! TGIF!
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