I've been there

On this, Mother's Day 2020 I can't help but to think back on a few things, as a mom:

I've been there...
-as the woman who had couldn't get pregnant
-the mom who's baby died early in my pregnancy-that next Mother's Day was hell
-the mom who anxiously waiting for the safe arrival of my first born-32 years ago
-the mom who navigated through having a newborn, a baby with colic, the firsts of everything, and missed having my mom close by to share it all with
-the mom who anxiously prayed for a healthy second born
-the mom who loved dressing up, putting in hair bows and curling my daughters hair
-the mom who anxiously prayed for a healthy third born-and savored every moment of what I knew would be my last pregnancy
-the mom who would take an early lunch from work to go have a date before taking my preschooler to school
-the mom who frantically tried to hold it all together in a chaotic world with three kids within four years of one another-I would not change a thing
-the mom who had tears in her eyes at the first day of school, every year
-the mom who was happy to see the school year end and summer begin so I could spend time with my kids
-the mom who sat at many, many sporting events, dance recitals, band concerts, parent-teacher conferences and dozens of other events in my kiddos lives
-the mom who proudly attended graduations of all three
-the mom who helped move her kids, many times over-cleaning apartments, houses, packing and unpacking
-the mom who told her own mom it was okay to go to heaven, dad was waiting
-the mom who misses her own mom and still can hear her voice in her head and the laughter we shared
-the mom who has been blessed to witness three engagements and beautiful weddings
-the mom who has held her grandchildren for the first time
-the mom who is beyond blessed with being called mom

I've been there, and I wouldn't trade all the memories and moments for anything in the world.