Send me to my room

If I was a little kid right now I know I would be sent to my room a lot lately! And I grew up in a house where my parents didn't practice this kind of discipline. But the most annoying things bug the poo out of me lately. Santa would not be paying me a visit if I was a kid...and maybe he won't since I'm an adult!

Please see the following points!

-someone left a "you've been socked" Christmas stocking on my desk this a.m. My first reaction was and still is a bit of annoyance. Really? I have 48-hours to refill this thing and dump it on someone else. Umm...ya' right. I know it is all in good holiday fun and I'm trying really, really hard to get that into my head instead of being annoyed and to stop thinking "are you kidding me?". I guess I know what I'm doing after school today, instead of doing silly things like wrapping gifts, cleaning, cooking and other useless things...
-I made DVD copies of some VCR videos for a friend. She had one video on "modern technology" a video on the thumb drive which I threw on some DVDs and handed to her a month or so ago...now she claims she did not get them. I know I handed them to her and I carefully marked and bundled them and gave them to her to get them out of my hair. They are NOT at my house and I remember handing them to her. BUT now I have to make six more copies of the dumb video...I know it's the right thing to do. I'm trying here but come on, keep track of your stuff.
-I feel like I am the worse parent/mom in the world. I listen to co-workers talk about how much candy and cookies they have made. I've made a little but its all gone-no one got sick so it must have been good/okay. I grew up in a house where my mom had metal coffee cans with plastic lids that were lined with wax paper and each was filled with one of at least 6-8 different kinds of homemade candy. It was so good! My job was to fill the candy tray during the holiday season. I still miss some or most of those candies. But I don't make them-my kids don't know the "candy experience!" Oh well.
-Christmas cards. I don't do these any more and haven't for the past several years. I enjoy getting them from people far away that we only hear from at this time of year. But I feel guilty for the people who we only hear from once a year and I don't return the kindness..I have Christmas card guilt. 😔
-I finished my Christmas shopping last night (I hope) and I felt like I was climbing up hill through mud to get it done. I do like that feeling of being done. It's a load off of my back!
-Fog! I feel like I live in San Francisco rather than Iowa right now. We've have more foggy and gray days than we had had sunshine lately. Where is the snow and cold that we are supposed to have during the winter? We had it earlier but it has all melted. A little snow, even a dusting would be nice! Our weather is wacky.
-Fed-Ex! Why do you not deliver packages yourself but rather drop them off at the post office where they get sent back to Des Moines and your package ends up taking another week or so get arrive. Do your job-please!
-the rude people I had to deal with last night when both Christmas and grocery shopping. Yes I was a woman on a mission and yes I forgot my grocery list but I had my Christmas list in my hot little hand and I remembered all but one thing on my grocery list! I knew what I needed to get/find and that was my mission-get the stuff and get out-alive! There is plenty to go around, you don't have to cut me off, or stand right in front of what myself and three other people were trying to get to (there was plenty of hams for all of us, you don't have to hog-pun intended, the display case) or act like you were in line when you really are budging because you were still looking at stuff, all so you could check out five minutes sooner than me...we all are in this together. I found myself smiling on the outside while the thoughts of "really?"  or "are you kidding me?" were running through my head.

Okay, these are not big deals and I know there are a lot worse things in the world right now. And maybe it's the rat race of the holidays or the friends who are done with their shopping, cards and/or baking and those who are done with school today or worse yet last Friday and here we are with another day yet tomorrow. But there is no excuse for my bad attitude. I know! Send me to my room!

I keep telling myself "it's life-stop looking at it as partly cloudy or , count your blessings and remember the reason for the season". Ya' well, I forget-I'm human. So for now while I adjust my attitude and try to get a grip on my life and all around me that affects me I'm going to plead the fact that I'm a bit overwhelmed and feeling like I'm waging this war alone-it's just me that's all. Tomorrow is a new day! Right?!

Positive thought of the day: Christmas is coming!!! After tomorrow it's all downhill-right?!?!