Taking a stand.

Standing up for a cause or something you feel strongly about is commendable but uncomfortable. If more people stood up for what was right maybe there would be more good than bad going on in this country and the world. But we seem to be in a trend right now that the immoral and under educated are running their mouths and those with values, morals, character and education are swept under the rug and ignored.

But it takes guts to stand up for something. And even more guts to stand up for yourself. To finally say "I've had enough." You're looked at as being full of drama or all about yourself. Heaven forbid you take a stand or say enough. But what does it take to stand up for YOU?

Is there a breaking point or fine line? It is different I'm sure for everyone. And there are those people who never stand up for themselves or anything. They go with the flow, they agree with whatever everyone says or does or believes. If they are happy or not, who knows.

I don't know what it takes or what pushes me to the point of no return. Some times it depends on the day. Or maybe even more so the person.

I finally stood up, put as politely as I could my feelings (although it was a very watered down version) and walked away from a BS situation. For the first 24-hours after I did this I had a whole gamut of emotions and feelings-beating myself up and taking the blame. Hurt, sadness, frustration were the key feelings. But then the feelings of why had I allowed myself to be treated like this, and dealt with the BS and garbage for over two years? Because it was for a good cause and something I believed in. But then it came to me as I was being talked AT instead of TO that regardless of the cause and the good it was intended this was NOT good for me-this is NOT how a positive situation should go. The person talking at me was doing what she was doing because she a) can't help herself and has a control problem b) she likes to be in charge and finally c) loves to be seen as a martyr-poor me I do all the work and people see me as a great person. Well heck, this was not a good or healthy thing for me to be around or near.

So as they say, I put on my big girl panties today and I'm sticking to my guns, good, bad, right or wrong. This is not how you do something that is suppose to be a positive and good cause. You make every part of the team, not just you or the "select" that you choose or deem worthy. That's NOT a team.

I'm sure there are more stupid feels that will creep into my idle brain but as long as I believe in me, and making things more positive I'm moving on and forward.

Positive thought of the day: You don't need someone to make you happy or feel valued. You need to be happy with yourself and see your worth of yourself for yourself. Until you do no one else is going to value you and you certainly will never find happiness if you are looking for it every where else but from you, inside you! Life is too short to let someone else drive and decide where YOU are going. Unless it's God!