Keeping in check

The past three weeks have been crazy busy. And to be honest I don't feel like I had much of a summer, but that's life. It is better than having too much time on my hands, which I hate. Too much sleep and too much time on my hands is not good, at least for me it is not.

It amazes me how quick things can change...one minute you are celebrating a life event, a milestone and the next minute God gives us a challenge or test that makes you double check life. It has been a reminder to appreciate what you have and maybe rethink your priorities.

I helped celebrate a life milestone for my sister last weekend. The event and celebration were amazing. It brought back tons of memories from my childhood, and to say I was proud and happy for my sister is an understatement. It was the celebration of my sister and her commitment, that made it worth the trip.

But God gave my family a check of reality (again, for the second time this year) this past week and it has put things in perspective, but I thought we had them in perspective. Reality sucks sometimes. No matter what I do the phrase "why do bad things happen to good people?" keeps coming to mind for me.

I am trying to find faith and comfort in the fact that God has this. Putting it in his hands. But it has been in his hands all along. I know that he does not give us anything that HE and I can handle together. "Have faith," I keep telling myself. But I swing from panic to prayer to anger back to keeping the faith. I wish I could turn back time to a week ago, but time marches on.

Sometimes we are given news that literally knocks us on our butt. For the second time this year, I find myself picking myself up off the ground and trying to grasp the news.

But for now, I will wait and see what tests tell us and what God has planned for our lives. It seems like life is far from dull and routine lately and why it's like that I don't have all the answers. But it's life and whatever it is God is trying to tell us I'm going to try to pay attention so I understand or at least get the message.

Appreciate the moments, not matter how big or small they are. Life goes by fast and changes in the blink of an eye. Be sure to say "I love you" to the people that you love because no one is guaranteed to be here at the end of the day, next week or a year from now. As the saying goes "Life is fragile, handle with prayer".