A new year...with new choices

I'm not good with big life decisions....what color to paint a room, whether to pull up carpeting or not, what to serve for a meal-ya, I know these are not big life decisions but its about as big as I've had to deal with over the past few years. I just do my thing and make the daily small decisions and keep moving along. So when BIG decisions come along, I try to use past experiences and to be well educated to know all the facts to help in my decisions.

With this new year comes a new big decision for me. I've done a lot of question asking and research. I've written down a pros and cons list. I've talked to a couple of people about the situation, but not many as I'm trying to do this on my own. But I always ask for insight or how things look from their angle, is there something I'm missing? I only ask people I trust and think will offer insight.

I've left the entire situation through this whole experience in God's hands from start and now to finish. And right now I find myself asking God "what should I do"? Is this the right thing? Is this a good change or am I not seeing the forest for the trees and making a wrong choice-I've been there before. I just keep asking as this has been a "lets just try and see where it goes experience" from the start. Am I running from something that is not that big of a deal and I'm making it a big deal? I've prayed for guidance and wisdom and clear vision.

Yes, I've gotten burned by a job before. What was said and what was actually done were two different things and I got burned and I'm not so trusting. You'd think after 15+ years I'd be beyond that by now. Nope.

Is this step in the right direction for me and my family? Or am I hesitant because of past experiences or because this is not for me? Am I missing the signs to move on or stay put? And I can't look ahead wondering if I do move on and things aren't like I hope then what do I do-my past experience? And there is the fear of change-some people embrace it, some people do anything to avoid it and others plunge into it feet first and thrive on it and are constantly looking for changes. I'm kind of middle of the road when it comes to changes....I love to clean out or re-arrange but I will admit I'm scared when it comes to jobs.

The daily life and being familiar is always a comfort thing for all of us. We like to relax and have safety in life. It makes us feel good. And then I look at my situation and think, this is not that big of a deal. God brought me to this and he hasn't left me alone or high and dry yet. Take the hint and  lets go either make the best of where you are or move on. There is the key phrase of this whole situation "lets go, either make the best of where you are or move on".

Change is good and being stuck in an uncreative rut is not. So I've set a personal deadline and I will stick to it and make my decision and like I do with all things I put my trust in God and what he has planned for me. I am just along for the ride, like I always have been and always will be.

So say a prayer that whatever choice I make it is the right one and for me to deal with that decision with grace and a positive outlook and not regret.

Positive thought of the day: Freedom of choice. We are so lucky to live in a country that allows us to make changes and choices in our careers and personal lives. Appreciate it and thank God if you are not doing something you hate or are forced to do. Freedom is a gift.