I've got nothing

I've had a couple of weeks where it has been extremely stressful and terrible busy. I know everyone has these days, weeks or months. But I'm to the point where I have nothing-no more to give-I'm out of ideas. I don't honestly know what to do next.

This has been extreme as far as the emotional part and I refer to the entire situation as "the elephant in the room". An individual has done something, several times, to teammates and while it was not directed at my activity it does affect everyone on my team in a variety of ways and the biggest being that we have the elephant in the room at every practice. We are on pins and needles most of the time. It is nice to see those rare moments when we forget the world and everyone is the same and we dance and forget the problems-I see brief moments of happiness and fun. But in reality the emotions are high and feelings run a whole gamut from anger to hurt to mistrust. To say we were or still may at times be reeling is an understatement. And worse of all is our sense of team. We have no leadership and our "leader" constantly is missing practices which does nothing but hurt us.

I have no directive from by "bosses" in all of this as to what is going on or how to deal with all of this other than I'm not allowed to discuss things. I sure as hell don't what to discuss things or to know the details! I just want to help girls deal with this, feel safe and bring back a sense of TEAM. And in truth, as I feared, this is killing my program. I feel like I am on the Titanic trying to bail the water with a teaspoon, okay maybe a tablespoon. It's just is not working. I'm tying to wipe the the slate clean and reduce stress-we'll see how that works? I hope less stress and less demands help fix things or at best they settle down. Time will tell.

We all make mistakes and make wrong choices. Live and learn. Make those wrong choices lessons-learn from them rather than let them define you. I have no idea what to do other than I'm still trying. The more normal things are the better, I think.

But on the flip side I don't think we should use this as an excuse for things. Lack of leadership or not showing up for practice is not an answer or a way to deal with things. Some people can't help themselves. They jump on the rumor mill wagon and try to make the most of the ride or make it all about them! Really people?

I personally wish none of this would have happened. It has and I just want it to go away-wishful thinking on my part. Oh well. So as I continue to bail the water on the Titanic I will keep trying to come up with a solution or at least some way to bring back some normalcy-happiness and fun to our TEAM. After all that is what this should all be about-the team.

Positive thought of the day: I'm still trying to come up with something for this.....so far, no luck.